Monday, January 18, 2010

Still Surviving

Sorry I haven't updated in awhile, and I don't have a lot of time to write much tonight, but I wanted to share an e-mail my mom sent me on New Year's Day:

"Happy New Year. I was reading the Ellen Goodman columm this morning. It is her last one before she retires. Don't know if you know her but she has always been my favorite columnist. Anyway this is what she said: "There is a trick to the Graceful Exit. It begins with a vision to recognize when a job, a life stage, a relationship is over-and to let go. It means leaving what's over without denying it's validity or its past importance to our lives. It involves a sense of future, a belief that every exit line is an entry, that we are moving on rather than out." That is kind of what I wanted to say to you but could not find the words. Because I have been through it, I know how much it hurts and I just can't stand it that you are going though it now. So I kind of don't talk about it with you because then I can be in denial a little bit. The deciding what you need is the hardest part I think, the grey area you talked about. Once you decide you will have some relief and some direction. Still won't be easy either way but it will be better. You will know in your heart and in your stomach that you made the best decision you could. I am not telling you which way to go that truly does have to come from you. But I am telling you that I love you very much and will support you always whatever you decide.
Love Momma"

Talk about making me cry!  But the quote she shared really resonated with me.  I am slowly gathering up the strength and courage I need right now... but I can't seem to let go of the fairytale that will never be told.  

More later... 

1 comment:

  1. Wow, that is moving! You are blessed to have your mom by your side. I am so thankful my mom has been with me through my trials.